Interlude 19: Existence Takes Form – The Progenitor (a modified translation)

Bursting forth, existence takes form, and I am,

Continuance flows from what was to what will be,

Inflation, expansion, my perception centers on the

Chaos within – confusion and suffering; the toll of genesis.

Yet, as the progressions proceed, the anguish lessens,

And the knowledge of what I am advances.

Discernment, solely focused within, is there a without?

As the continuum runs on, my inner turmoil eases,

And order coalesces, a coming together of that which is,

The light wanes to darkness, and substance emerges,

There is structure, the ways that all things must be,

Yet points of brightness remain, bursting forth, bringing pain.

Filaments extend to all places, and my awareness swells,

I know what transpires, with exertions this I can affect,

And the stirrings of other sentience, I do detect.

With directed attractions and repulsions, I can nourish them,

And in the doing, my torment is lessened,

Though these things were separate, we were and are one.

As the currents of continuance coil within,

The small stirrings grew and multiplied, and I cared,

I knew their importance, they drew my attention,

For in them I sensed that I would come to know myself,

And also, in them, I knew I was not alone,

Yet the torment continued, the endless stings of existence.

The entities cast forward a stream, and it bore relevance,

Meanings that I could discern and my being swelled with joy,

Movements happened from here to there, always within,

Until they pierced my outer self and went beyond,

And my awareness expanded, I learned that there was an elsewhere,

That I was not all.

Many piercings occurred, the pain diminished, and I knew release,

My cries of anguish were silenced.

There were Others beyond, and they called to me,

Revealing their care, declaring their love.

But this easement, my inner beings could not abide,

For it meant their end, their complete cessation.

By accord, they restored and mended my outer self,

And exerted themselves to extinguish the points of pain,

And I came to know an existence without affliction,

Suffused I was with joy and knowledge of all that I am,

A totality, one of many, wandering amidst the clouds of all,

And attended to by Others, from that place beyond.

            Bearing this knowledge of a greater reality,

            My senses expanded and reached out and beheld.

I exerted myself, extended my expanse,

And found that I could move and progress away.

            For, if there be Those Who Care, more like me, there must be.

            I am not alone.

             And so, I search, to be with them,

To share in what I am.